Anticipation

I feel like I always start the same way after I'd been MIA on here. It's crazy how the time's passed. I've been so busy. I'm embarking on a new adventure. Bla bla. So this time, instead of repeating what I've said many many times before, I thought I'd be honest and admit that I never really know how to start after a break. 

I've had so much on my mind recently, so I did think about posting something on here. But then, I mostly only write when I'm traveling. Also, there's a certain reservation when it comes to sharing stuff that is not too positive. Everyone is going through stuff. I sometimes feel like I complain about things that are actually not that bad, that I'm privileged and should not forget that. On the other hand, it's difficult to be reflected and appreciative of your life when something is not going well. It's like a spiral where you focus on the problems and it's very hard to see anything else. 

Anyway, I don't want to focus too much on what has been bothering me, but since I started, it would be unfair if I left it vage. I've been working in my current job for almost two and a half years. I like it. I teach two languages and do marketing on the side, which is great because I've learnt so much and also feel like I'm following in my Dad's footsteps. I never really thought much about whether this job would be one for a long time - whatever is considered a long time. I never asked myself whether this was it for me. Never decided on a time frame when I would start thinking of changing or leaving. None of that. However, I did consider this something I'd like to stay in for more than two years. I love the team, my tasks, the diversity of my work. I don't feel ready to be moving on just yet. 

But sometimes such things are not within my power - which is difficult to realize, to be honest. It's like you really want it, you work for it and there's a big chance of you getting it. Maybe I've been blessed/privileged in this as well because this way of thinking is based on my experiences so far. You probably already know where I'm going with this. My current contract is limited and right now it looks like my employer will not be able to keep me longer or without a break in between. It probably sounds confusing and even though I'd like to dive into this topic in great detail, I won't for two reasons: 1. I'm sick of it. 2. I don't want to bore you. Let me just say this: it's not black and white, there are shades, there is hope and ambitions. Currently, however, I have no idea what will happen next. 

Since I'm a perfectionist that likes to be in control, the situation is super tough for me. But maybe it's also good. Another learning experience. To practice good faith and patience. To practice giving someone else a little bit more control. I'll keep you updated how that works out for me. 

Okay, I have to apologize, I did what I actually didn't want to do: go into more detail. And since I'm at a loss for a good transition, I won't give you one. That's just honest, isn't it? 

I'm going on a training to Malta soon. (Wow! That did have an effect, didn't it?)

Those of you who may have read my blog last year or maybe even over the years, know two things: Malta is where my training journey started, and after last year's experience, it couldn't have been any other place for it to continue. 

Around the same time last year, I went to Nice, France. The place was great. It was my first time there and I really enjoyed everything a lot. Culturally, anyway. The training itself was not that great. Maybe it's because I have other experiences to compare it to. Other trainings and schools. For someone doing this for the first time, it might have been nice (no pun intended). 

Malta, for me, is everything - it's a fantastic place. Rich history, lovely people, sea, weather, architecture, food. But also wonderful training programs. I've always booked classes at one school, ETI. And I wouldn't change that decision even if I could. I've done many different courses and was always very happy. So I guess it just makes sense that I'm returning there. 

Everything is booked and organized - place, flights, airport transfer. I'm full of anticipation and very much looking forward to this experience. Probably also because I've been in my head a lot these past couple of months and really need something positive and uplifting. I'd love for you to join me on my trip, and/or leave a comment on the unclear job-topic.